Letting go.

It's been a while since I published anything in this blog. Not going to lie, there's a lot of reasons for that- But it boils down to not having the motivation to actually put the amazing things I've learned in the past few months into writing. Don't get me wrong, I've had lots of ideas, and learned a lot of eye-opening things in the past few months- But I just haven't taken the time to put them into written form. I hope to be able to focus some more on writing here in the upcoming months- for all of my readers (both of you!) haha! But today- I felt like I had something that needed to be shared. So if you wish to continue reading,,, I hope this might make some sense in your world too. Today I decided that it was time to let go. Letting go is a really hard thing for me. I tend to hold on to WAY too much in literally every aspect of my life. I hold on to physical possessions - I might need them one day! Or maybe they are tied to a memory or someone special gifted them to me.... there are all kinds of reasons. I hold on to people- even ones that have proven time and again that it isn't necessarily in my best interest to do so. I hold on to relationships- even when it is painfully obvious that they are toxic. I hold onto ideas- thoughts, dreams, plans- whathaveyou. I hold on to ideologies. The way I think a person/place/situation is or even worse: the way it could be. - Which is by far the most dangerous thing in the world.

Believe me when I say: Rose-colored glasses are not your friend!

Don't get me wrong- holding on to "what could be" - is not necessarily a bad thing... - at least not in some instances. I believe in chasing your dreams and giving it your all. I believe in going all in. Taking risks, and following your heart (or gut feeling)... and definitely flying by the seat of your pants - that is pretty much the only way I do anything! I don't believe in giving up when the going gets tough- because I DO believe that the best part might be just over that next mountaintop! But sometimes, that mountain you are climbing proves to be more of- well -a huge pile of shit- than the beautiful epic peak that you once imagined it to be. It's a sad and disappointing realization - but realize it, we must. But where do you go from there? That is the question. For me- in my particular situation today- I'm saying goodbye to something that I've put a lot of time, money, effort, and energy into. Something I've fought for and worked on for years. I'm giving up on my hopes for what it could have been, and realizing that it never can be. I'm not admitting defeat. (Are you kidding? PUHLEEZE). This is not my failure. (I'd own it if it were - Lord knows I've failed plenty!) Instead, I'm realizing that this isn't the right vehicle for me to keep moving forward in... So I'm trading it in. You can't climb a mountain without 4wd, right? While I realize that this post is somewhat vague, I hope that my message is getting through. Don't give up on the things that matter most to you- but at the same time, don't be afraid to realize that maybe you're on the wrong path to get to the destination you've been working for. Maybe the path is right, but the vehicle is wrong... Maybe the vehicle is right, but the tour guide is hopelessly lost... The KEY point here is: Don't be afraid to re-evaluate all of those things, and make changes so that you can get back on your rise to that peak... because you WILL get there- you just have to make sure that everything is working in your favor. Don't feel like you always have to give things more time... It is NEVER the wrong time to re-evaluate your situation and circumstances, and if you find that you are not moving forward, make a change. Not saying to not give things a chance- even slow progress is progress... but let's face it- your gut will tell you when that chance has come and gone- amIright? The biggest mistake you can make is to keep doing what is not working for you - and to expect your results to change. No matter how hard you work at something, if you are not headed in the right direction - you'll never get there. I was recently listening to my very favorite speaker- Tony Robbins... and I'm going to paraphrase something he said... forgive me for the misquote- but basically, the idea was: -If you're searching for the sunrise- no matter how hard you work at it, and how much effort you put in- you'll never find it if you keep looking to the west. The idea being- you can work and work and work for something, but if you are working in the wrong direction, you'll never achieve it. OUCH! I've definitely been working in the wrong direction in this particular area of my life. I encourage you- take a look at what you are working for. What your goals are... what you want. What you really, really want... (Spice girls anyone?!?!) And then ask yourself - if you are truly putting forth the effort and energy, but not moving forward... WHY that is. I think you'll probably also find something that you might need to let go of- or at least something you might need to change. My message to you today: Do not be afraid to make that change... it's the only way to get to that mountain top. But if you keep trying and keep making positive changes - you WILL get there. I promise. That's the end of my ramblings today. I hope something resonated with you... I know it was a revelation for me. ~ Love, Purple